Listed measurements refer to the tested size and max girth. Click to see the tool's figure and information in Archive. All conclusions in this Note were drew solely from my personal practice and feeling, so DO NOT hold any idea here as truth because every body varies.
For me, this month was a return and a whole new start.
I had been through surgery several years ago. After that, I had to rebuild slowly, step by step, until my body could open again and eventually return to fisting. But before this journal started, I had also spent around half a year without consistent stretching work.
So when I began filming Week 1, I was not trying to prove how much I could take. I am not talented and I struggled.
I was asking a more basic question:
Can my body trust this process again? Will regular posting push me to build who I want to be?
That question changed everything.
In the beginning, the most important signal was not size in comparison. It was whether my entrance (external sphincter/first ring) was willing to allow pressure again. Whether it could relax. Whether it could stop pushing back. Whether I could feel the difference between forcing something in and letting the body slowly accept it.
The acceptence became the real theme of Month 1.
Week 1: Hello, donut!
In Week 1, I started with very basic warm-up work.
Even during fingering, I could feel that after two fingers, when I pulled out, the entrance would tighten and push outward almost like the body was trying to reject what just happened. It told me my body was not fully open yet. It could accept contact, but it was still defensive. That is normal, it takes time. As for beginners, accept contact around your anus before insertion.
That is why one would never start with something impressive. I started with Archive #001 – Pointed Bullet (tested size: 14.5 cm / 5.7 in max girth).
The size was not the point. The point was rebuilding the feeling of entry.
For this stage, breathing mattered more than pushing. I would align the tool, apply gentle pressure, and breathe deeply. When I inhaled, I could often feel the entrance push outward slightly and soften. When I exhaled, my entrance could not clench by itself. That small change mattered.
I think this is one of the first things beginners misunderstand. The goal is not to attack the body until something enters. The goal is to let the body understand what is happening.
If the tool can enter but still feels uncomfortable, I do not immediately chase more movement. I keep it there, let the body read the pressure, then try again.
That was the first clear note from Week 1:
Progress does not begin when the tool enters. Progress begins when the body stops fighting it.
Later, I moved to Archive #002 – Pointed Cone (tested size: 21.5 cm / 8.5 in max girth).
A cone is about sizing up. If the entrance is not ready, the pressure can become sharp very quickly.
I did not treat it as something to conquer. I treated it as something to stretch and relax around.
A cone structure can be useful, but only when the body is already starting to allow. If I fight against it too early, it becomes more about force than training.
Then I used Archive #003 – Straight Shaft (tested size: 17 cm / 6.7 in max girth).
This was the first time in the journal where I clearly felt the bend (anorectal junction/second ring) being contacted again.
The bend does not behave like the entrance. It does not simply open because pressure exists. It needs direction. It needs time. It needs the correct path.
If I push at the wrong angle, it creates poking pain and resistance. But when the direction is right, the body can slowly allow the tool to pass while being given consistent pressure. After that, gentle movement becomes possible.
I could also feel that slight gagging-like response (clunk!) when the bend was being straightened by the tool. The more often that happened, the more familiar it became.
Therefore, depth work is not only about going deeper. It is about finding your right path where the body can stop resisting!
I also tested Archive #004 – Curved-Head Shaft (tested size: 19.5 cm / 7.7 in max girth).
Because the head curves upward slightly, it can sometimes approach my bend more naturally. When the angle matches the body, it slides in much more smoothly. But when the direction does not match, it can get stuck completely.
So I learned that a curved-head tool is not automatically easier or harder to be taken.
It is easier only when the curve fits the body even when it is soft enough.
By the end of Week 1, my body is beginning to remember. I am back! And I felt happy about what I have started to do rather than thinking, “OK, I got bigger.”
Week 2: New Main, New Depth
By Week 2, I could warm up with 3 fingers instead of 2.
That sounds like a small detail, but it mattered. It showed that the entrance was becoming more familiar with pressure, even though it was still always pushing my fingers out.
I repeated Archive #002 – Pointed Cone (tested size: 21.5 cm / 8.5 in max girth) and understood it better this time.
Once I learned how to let the body suck it in instead of forcing it, I no longer needed to start every session from the very smallest point. But I want to be clear: that is because I had previous experience. A newer user may need much longer before skipping earlier steps.
This is where I started measuring progress differently.
If the same warm-up becomes faster, that is progress.
If the same pressure feels less sharp, that is progress.
If the body settles sooner, that is progress.
These changes are not always obvious on video, but inside the session they are very clear.
Cone structures can get stuck very fast during warm-up. Slow pressure helped. Rotation helped. Time helped.
But sitting down too aggressively or trying to force the widest point through too early only created pain and more tension!
In one session, I spent nearly 30min trying to stuff a tool in when my entrance was not truly relaxed. Technically, I was “working,” but it drained me mentally and did not move the session forward happily.
Sometimes the problem is not that the tool is too large.
Sometimes the problem is that the body is not ready and happy for that role yet.
I kept using Archive #003 – Straight Shaft (tested size: 17 cm / 6.7 in max girth) as a warm-up tool.
My entrance could have taken something larger, but I kept it because the bend still needed preparation. The entrance being ready does not mean the bend is ready. They are not the same area, and they do not adapt at the same speed.
This is why I do not like defining a tool too early as only “warm-up” or only “main.” A tool’s role depends on what the body needs that day.
If the sensation is still strong and useful, it is still doing work. If it starts to feel like nothing, that may mean the body has adapted enough to move forward.
By the end of Week 2, Archive #004 – Curved-Head Shaft could slide in from more angles. That suggested the bend was becoming less locked into one narrow path.
But Week 2 also reminded me that progress fluctuates.
Session 2 and Session 3 were not as smooth as Session 1. That did not mean I had lost progress. It simply meant adaptation at this level was not totally complete yet.
I also tested Archive #005 – Rounded Cone (tested size: 23 cm / 9 in max girth).
Even though it was larger, the rounded head gave me more room to work with than a sharper cone. I did not pursue the sudden pass-through moment. I could sit into it slowly and let the entrance expand over time. I realized sometimes shape matters more than the number because a good day shows possibility, but repeatability shows adaptation.
Week 3: Back to the Entrance
Week 3 was supposed to help me compare different tools for depth training.
The test did not go as planned.
But that failure was useful.
I started with Archive #003 – Straight Shaft (tested size: 17 cm / 6.7 in max girth) and did not need fingering first. That already showed some adaptation. My body could enter the session faster than before under regular sessions.
Then I moved to Archive #006 – Long Shaft (tested size: 16.5 cm / 6.5 in max girth).
On paper, it seemed useful for depth work. It was long, dual-density structure, relatively slimmer, and should have helped me explore deeper adaptation.
But in the session, it became frustrating.
It was too slippery. It was difficult to hold. It was hard to guide. Because it was slimmer, it also did not give me enough sensation to work with.
It could enter, but it did not help me progress.
That distinction is important.
A tool entering the body does not automatically mean it is useful for training.
Then I tested Archive #007 – Long Segmented Rod (tested size: 17 cm / 6.7 in max girth).
Because it had segmented structure, it was easier to grip than the Long Shaft. But it required too much hand effort, and the one-piece silicone felt firmer than I wanted. The sensation was not very comfortable.
Originally, I wanted to compare whether different material structures might be better for deeper training. But because the tools were too different in shape, length, grip, firmness, and control, the comparison failed.
That became the real Week 3 insight:
A test is only useful when the variables are controlled enough. Otherwise, the body is not comparing one thing. It is fighting everything at once.
This was one of the first times I really felt why tool testing has to be structured.
A tool can look suitable before the session and fail completely once it enters real use. Length, grip, surface, density, balance, and hand control can change everything.
Later, I returned to Archive #004 – Curved-Head Shaft (tested size: 19.5 cm / 7.7 in max girth).
This time it felt much more enjoyable and could be moved more naturally. That contrast made the failed tools clearer. A good training tool has to give both the hole and the hand enough control.
Week 3 also gave me one of the strongest observations of the month.
I used Archive #008 – Heavy-Head Shaft (tested size: 20 cm / 7.9 in max girth).
Because both the entrance and bend had already opened more than before, it entered more easily than expected. The deeper zone (rectum) stimulation was strong, but also surprisingly comfortable.
This changed something in my understanding.
The deeper zone does not behave the same way as the entrance tunnel (anal canal).
For me, once past the bend, the space feels different. It feels wider and less like the tunnel, where sudden stretch can create a sharper tearing fear. Deeper discomfort often comes more from intensity, firmness, speed, and sudden stimulation than from width alone.
When the stimulation is strong enough, it can trigger a more powerful outward response for building an pushed-out rosebud.
Near the end of Week 3, I returned to Archive #005 – Rounded Cone (tested size: 23 cm / 9 in max girth).
Because I realized something simple but important:
If the entrance is not open enough, there is no point talking about depth training.
The entrance still comes first.
Finally, I wore Archive #009 – Oval (tested size: 20 cm / 7.9 in max girth) in for around 20 minutes after the session.
After deeper work, longwear helped reduce the sudden empty feeling.
Week 4: Set in Motion
Week 4 made preparation impossible to ignore.
In Session 1, I tested a more liquid water-based lubricant.
It was very slippery, but for solo training it created problems. It made the sheet wet. It made everywhere too slick. Once the suction base got wet, it became unreliable.
For my personal solo training, it was not ideal.
For fist-based sessions, a more liquid lubricant may be useful because it provides long-lasting wetness and glide. But for tool-based training, especially when I need grip and control, too much liquid can work against me.
That was another tool-behavior note: Slippery is not always better.
In Session 2, I had tension and discomfort because the skin around the entrance was dry and tight. That made warm-up take much longer.
If the skin is dry, irritated, or tight, the body becomes defensive faster. Regular moisturizing around the area may affect whether warmup feels calm enough to begin.
In Session 3, I tested a simple question:
If I use a straight structure first, will a cone open faster afterward?
The early result was yes.
After warming up with Archive #003 – Straight Shaft (tested size: 19 cm / 7.5 in max girth), Archive #005 – Rounded Cone entered much faster.
I still need more sessions to confirm whether this method is reliable, but the first result was useful.
This larger Straight Shaft felt like an upgraded version of the earlier one: longer, slightly thicker, and better for preparing a bend that already had some experience. The sensation itself was not dramatic, but it made my hole more ready.
That is important. Not every useful tool feels intense. Some tools are useful because they prepare the next step.
Archive #008 – Heavy-Head Shaft (tested size: 20 cm / 7.9 in max girth) still entered smoothly and continued to feel more focused on deeper-zone adaptation than entrance/bend stretching.
This distinction became clearer in Week 4:
Some tools train the entrance.
Some tools help the bend open.
Some tools let me work past both and focus deeper.
Then I used Archive #010 – Gradual Shaft (tested size: 23 cm / 9.1 in max girth).
This was the first time I felt what depth training might look like as its own stage.
Because the shaft gradually widens toward the base, the increase is not as visually aggressive as a pointed-head taper. But in use, the pressure builds. The bend expansion was strong, and the discomfort from bend expansion also increased.
Because it is gradual, both entrance and bend can be challenged at the same time. That means the total pressure can become higher than with a simple straight structure.
I could switch to a straight tool if I want a cleaner depth-training focus. But for now, I want to keep this Gradual Shaft as a "main" and adapt to this first.
After removing it, the outward pushing response was stronger than before to me, with pissing. For me, entrance stretch training alone will effectively build a puffier donut instead of a bigger rosebud.
During Week 4, I also had a very small amount of bleeding at the end of one session, likely because I moved too quickly before I was fully adapted. But this is common in anal stretching.
I want to say this clearly: Small bleeding can happen, but I still try to avoid it.
If you do not want any bleeding, go slower. Do not rush movement just because the tool has entered. Entry is not the same as adaptation inside.
At the end of Week 4, I used Archive #009 – Oval (tested size: 20 cm / 7.9 in max girth) again for around 30 minutes of longwear.
It worked even better than before.
After depth work, it helped my body settle. It also helped remaining air and lubricant come out gradually, so I did not feel the need to clean again or deal with that fake “need to go to the bathroom” feeling afterward.
That made the longwear feel less like a separate activity and more like a recovery step.
Bottom line
After the first month, I do not conclude a perfect method. I do not want to pretend I do. But I do have clearer things to watch. When I look back at these four weeks, the real progress was not only in size. It was in how I learned to read my body.
I started asking better questions:
Can my body relax faster than last time?
Does the entrance allow, or only tolerate?
Is the bend opening, or am I forcing the wrong path?
Does the tool give me control, or does it make me fight?
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These questions are more useful than a single successful moment.
Month 1 was not perfect. Some tests worked. Some failed. Some gave me more questions than answers. But that is the point.
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